Real-time

I've been thinking for awhile what I would write here. Do I want to divulge my most personal dark thoughts, and frustrations or keep it light, airy and cheerful? I honestly don't feel like the latter. I am having such a hard time right now with my life and all the pitfalls it seems to be taking. I keep trying hard to look for the light and to be positive but it seems as though every time I do, life come a knocking with a hefty blow. The geek in me keeps coming back to this quote from Yoda..."do or do not, there is no try". I attempt to just do and things end up being wrong and hard to recover from. I am looking for inspiration in my life. It really has lost it's luster. I guess this is what you would call life, in real-time, real-world. I really don't like it.